Hi Reader,
What happens when a former NFL player loses 15 pounds—not from training, but from the crushing weight of having to let go of some staff?
Derwin Gray thought he had leadership figured out. NFL tough. Church strong. But when the hardest decisions of his ministry nearly broke him physically, he discovered something that changed everything: the difference between leading with bravado and leading with grace.
In this raw conversation, Derwin takes us inside his childhood trauma, his struggle with toxic masculinity in both sports and church culture, and the painful process of learning to forgive. He reveals how Jesus offers a radically different model of manhood—one that embraces vulnerability as strength and humility as power.
This isn't just another leadership podcast. It's the story of a man who had to lose everything he thought made him strong to discover what true strength actually looks like.
If you’re in leadership, or even just trying to follow Jesus more authentically in today’s world, you won’t want to miss it.
🎧 Listen now and take the next step toward healthier leadership. Watch it on YouTube or tune in wherever you listen to podcasts.
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